Tuesday 6th February 2007

Something is wrong with me I think...Since Sunday morning, I have been having this on and off stomache. Monday I felt floaty all the way till this morning. Nothing serious I hope. Sigh...I have been thinking we live life not knowing what would happen to us the next minute. I may not have a tomorrow. Who knows? so I should live like there's no tomorrow right? I dont want to have to regret anything.

I had always wanted to live righteously. A life lived by my principles and believes. Unfortunately, as I grew older, I realised that what I believe in and want to uphold does not always neccessarily please everyone around me. Everyone is different of course... So in order to satisfy others, I have to give up some of my believes. It is a difficult process. But I dont want to hurt...

If something was to happen to me, if I was to die today...what do I want to be in my next life?


IF I WAS TO BE....


A HUMAN:
If i was to be reborn as a human, I wish to dedicate my entire life into walking towards the path of the dharma. I want to achieve enlightenment so as to be able to help all sentient beings in this lifetime and all future lifetimes. I will know no jealousy, hate or anger.
I will be a good daughter to my parents. I will be fillial to them and will do my best not to disappoint them. I will take care of them and thank them from the bottom of my heart for giving me a life.
To my siblings, I want to be a good and responsible sister who is always there for them whenever they need support. I will love and care for them unconditionally.
I will be a good truthful friend. I will give help to those that ask for it and offer it to whoever I see needs it. I will be someone my friends can count on with their life.
I will be a good to the one I love. I will give him everything I can. I will always be faithful and look only at his direction. I will be someone he can trust and count on. Hurt him I wont. I will give him all the love I have.


AN ANIMAL:

If i was to be reborn as an animal, I want to be one that can give love to other sentient beings. Such like a dog does to its owner. I want to be the animal that brings joy, that touches the lives of others.
Or...I want to be an animal that helps other sentient beings live. I will be their source of food and enjoyment, such that they do not have to be hungry.


AN INSECT...

If I was to become an insect, than may I be one that is not a pest. Let me be one that is able to contribute to the goodness of the world.