Ok right now it has come to the point where I have to decide on which direction do I want to take my life to.

One option that I am seriously considering is to return to the UK and settle there. After all, my brothers are there and my mum just bought an awesome apartment there. I would not have to worry about rent and whatever other shit I have here. And most importantly, I would not be lonely.

Second option is to go somewhere in Asia like Hong Kong which is equally as attractive as the option above. My grandparents are there...and Hong Kong is just such an awesome place for someone like me to develop. It is not just easy for me to develop my career there, I can also be close to my parents.

Well the last option which I am currently undertaking (which I am beginning to wonder more and more why I am doing it) is to stay in fucked up USA and live my current fucked up used life. I mean US is not gonna give me a visa from the looks of it. And there is no one here I can trust. Everyone here seems to have some ulterior motive. Most of the time, I am unhappy. Yea its hollywood and shit...but my future seems bleak here especially those related to my future relationships. Guys here are just fucked up. Oh hell yea they are...they are all dogs or ex dogs who are still most likely going to dog around after they are bored.

Looks like I would go for the first two options. I just contacted my brother who lives in London to name me some film/ tv production companies there. Hopefully tomorrow he can give me a list where I can start applying to. Once that's settled, I believe I would be on the way to a happier life and brighter future.